Tuesday, May 21, 2019

What is Your Pain?


What is Your Pain?


Reading this is can be a challenge.
Reading this can be a release,
from emotional pain…
because,
Emotional pain isn't pain –
it’s fear of pain being performed
as though one was, is or will be in pain.,
performing pain right now.

If one looks at, feels into, listens closely,
the raw feeling of so called emotional pain, what is there?
We are thinking certain thoughts as the mind.
We are responding a certain way in t eh body.
Certain feelings – a sensation that we think know
so well that it need not be investigated,
a sensation so important it dare not be questioned,
a sensation so urgent, there’s no time to waste –
this response must be responded to, as fight, as flight,
to be performed as anger, as sadness, as depression.,
and don’t you dare question that performance.
We are so engrossed in this critical performance
that we forget its gestures are a seeming habit,
a learned skill, a learned response, a signpost
flashing DANGER, PAIN, HELP ME – a distress signal,
but still just a signal, even as a feeling, without the
habitual label, without the habitual performance in
response to certain bodily signals unquestioned
 it wouldn’t even be recognized as a sensation –
not even painful.
But unquestioned this signal about a signal about
a past distress that warns of a distress to come,
this newsflash, this personal gossip, this
rolling rumor gathering force is a metaphor
come alive, telling us what it is, telling us why it is.
telling us who we are.
It is a taboo to investigate the role play of pain.
As it is a convincing voice in the role play of being
oneself, a present moment signal in the response set of being
oneself.
Without your pain, who are you? What are you?
When are you?
What are you doing right now?
Can you take responsibility right now?
Can you admit that you are doing this,
you are always doing this,
pretending “it happened to you”?
A sort of self hypnosis,
a doing, pretending to be a happening,
Can you admit, embrace,
and shall we dare say enjoy
the ability to respond?